God is Light; in Him there is NO Darkness at all

Dear child of God,

       I know this is a hard day for you.  You miss your Dad.  Like Crazy.  And Father’s Day brings exposes a lot of raw grief.   And I will take advantage of you when you are so vulnerable.  You wish you had one last hug, you replay the moments that he was coherent and responded with the determination that he always had.  You have a thousand “what ifs.”   But right here, child of God, is where you make your choice.   You can recall these moments with bitterness and believe that God was cruel.   Or you can see God’s light shining through those last moments – even when your heart was so astray and hurting.  You can choose to keep your eyes upon Jesus.  And trust that He is good and perfect.  And choose to rejoice that your dad is not in the darkness of this world but in the perfect light that Jesus shines upon him.

 So, dear child, this may be a difficult day.  But don’t let me rob you of the joy you can feel looking back upon his life.  You can choose to rejoice.  

                                   Depression             

 

God is light; in Him there is no darkness at all.  

1 John 1:5

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Do Not be Afraid or Discouraged….. for the Battle is not yours, but God’s.

Dear Depression,

I hate you.  You really suck the life out of me.  Period.  You sneak up on me and send my brain spiraling out of control.  You consume me and I hate it…. a lot.

But that’s where your control stops.

Jesus is my deliverer.   So, even though you think you are winning, you are not.   Because no matter how defeated I feel, God is still working in me and through me.  That may be the only reason I keep holding on.

And even if I can’t make it anymore – you have still lost.  Because this was never my battle to fight.  God fights for me.

And He ALWAYS wins.

Sincerely,

Child of God

 

Do Not be Afraid or Discouraged….. for the Battle is not yours, but God’s.                                                                                                                                   2 Chronicles 20:15 NIV

He Heard my Cry for Mercy

Dear Child of God,

  I watch you seek help in all the wrong places.  And I know that as long as you refuse to wholly give your burden over to Jesus – you will never step out of the hurt.  And into life….. your life as God has always intended for you.  I encourage you to pull away from others and further into darkness.  I lie to you and tell you that you are not relying on God when you allow others into the tough, dark places.   But, God doesn’t want you in isolation.  In fact, God chooses to work through people.   He beautifully orchestrates your life with others’ to glorify Himself through your healing.  He WILL bring wholeness in your life.   Just keep your eyes on Him and I will not be able to destroy you.

   Always yours,

                    Depression 

 

 

 

 

 

I love the Lord, for He heard my voice;  he heard my cry for mercy.   Because He turned my ear to me, I will call on Him as long as I live.      Psalm 116:1-2

You will know the Truth and the Truth will set You Free

Dear Child of God,

Sometimes I whisper in your ear.   Disguised as your own internal monologue.    But sometimes, I use others to sabotage you. I’ve already convinced you that you do not have worth.   But then, I enlist others to do my work for me.  I don’t even have to whisper “worthless”  or  “broken” in your ear anymore.  I use the judgment of  others.  And after being the sounding board of  criticism and judgment for decades – you believe that’s how all other people think. You think judgment and condemnation are normal and it lays heavy on your shoulders wherever you go.  It is hard  to wrap your brain around an alternate reality.  The true reality.  Not a warped vision of the truth.   A reality that says that those who are so judgmental are also deeply hurting and sick.  A reality that says that you are NOT broken beyond repair or worthless in God’s sight.   A reality that is kinder and gentler than one you had ever envisioned.    And a reality in which, when those judgmental people do come, you can dismiss them.  A reality in which you have a choice.  You can choose to believe what the sick world says or what the word of God says about you.  The truth that God dearly loves you.  Hold that truth close to your heart.   And when I try to contradict that truth… when I try to twist it – hold it up next to The Truth.  And you will be set free. 

                                            Sincerely,

                                                Depression

 

Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free.  John 8:32  NIV

Finally be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power

Dear Child of God,

       I whisper in your ear all day long.  I tell you how much you hate yourself.  I interpret your own awkwardness for rejection and failure.  I stab your heart and convince you that you are not strong enough to survive.  And you carry my heavy burden.  I distract you and overwhelm you with emotion.  Because I don’t want you to know how much Jesus loves you.  I want you cold and disconnected.  But, the truth is that you have the power of the God of the Universe living inside you.  If you refuse me, He conquers me.  If you listen to my voice whispering in your ear, you will continue to struggle.  The choice is yours.  As God’s chosen, you have the power to overcome.  You are strong.  Because He is strong.

 

 Sincerely,

    Depression

   Finally be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power.                                                        Ephesians 6:10


 

Therefore, there is no Condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus

Dear Child of God, 

       I cover your heart in shame.   Your life in shame.   Your very existence in shame.  It seeps and oozes out of your every thought and word.  That shame suffocates you as it covers you in that bleak darkness that envelops you wholly.  Because of my lies, you truly believe there is something so very wrong inside of you.   It’s as if people can see through you into the darkest parts.  Where you hurt the most.    Fear surrounds you.  But, dear child, you don’t have to hurt.  You don’t have to drown in your fear.  And live your life in shame.   Instead, trust in God to take away that judgement, that condemnation.  It might not even feel true.  Yes, the truth is going to feel like a lie.  Simply because I have spent so much of your life whispering rejection, shame, and fear.  But, ultimately,  I don’t have power over you.  You can be liberated from my control.   You don’t have to feel it, but you can KNOW this to be true……..  In His perfect love, God has rescued you from your shame.  You are free.

    Sincerely,

                                     Depression

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus..                                                                                                                                                Romans 8:1

I have Loved You with an Everlasting Love

Dear Child of God,

 I hate you.  It’s simple.  I want you dead.  If not physically, spiritually.  It all started with a little lie I whisper in your ear each morning, “I hate myself.”   You consider it your own voice but it’s not.  It’s mine.  But soon that whisper became a blaring siren that you awoke to each morning.  As your body and mind fell further and further into sickness possessed by anxiety that throbbed through your entire body and robbed you of all your peace and rational thinking, you began to act upon that loathing hate of yourself.   At first it was just a little cut.  But soon, it numbed your deep, deep pain.  And you would cut and slice and slit until a towel was soaked in blood.  Simply because I lied to you.  And you believed you were worthless and deserved to die.   I hide the truth in your emotional pain.  I don’t want you to know that God loves you with an everlasting love.  I  tell you that His love excludes you because you have fallen into such a deep, deep abyss.  But that not true.  He loves you.  He picks up the broken, bleeding, painful pieces.  And  because He is so gentle,  He whispers to you, “I have loved you with an everlasting love,” and He loves you into His gentle, sweet wholeness that only He could bring.

                              Sincerely,

                                       Depression

 

The Lord appeared to me in the past saying, “I have loved you with an everlasting love.  I have drawn you with loving kindness…..  Jeremiah 31:3