You tell me I am helpless; but God is my helper. You tell me that this is more than I can bear; but God always provides a way out of temptation. You tell me that I am broken; but God is my healer. You tell me that I am hated; but God pours out His love for me; You tell me that there is no mercy; but God pours His grace over me.
Anxiety, you physical assault me. And you are a lie to me. But despite how I feel, God IS truth and I can stand on HIS promises.
Child of God
2 Peter 1:4
And because of his glory and excellence, he has given us great and precious promises. These are the promises that enable you to share his divine nature and escape the world’s corruption caused by human desires.
I thought I had you under control. But you slither out from under me and attack me with all your might. Late at night, my insides are lit on fire….. my body hurts inside. My extremities are tingling or numb. I can hardly breathe. My blood pressure shoots up. And let’s face it, you practically take over my mind. I hate myself. I am lonely. No one cares. I say stupid things. I can’t believe I did that. I’d be better off dead. I press against my head hoping the spinning will stop. But it doesn’t. I am a horrible mother and wife. There is nothing I can do. I am so tired hallucinations surround me. And I have this fear that one is lurking behind me. My head is going to explode. I hate this. Others hate me. I am so hard to be around. I can’t keep up with anything. Every positive thought I’ve learned is a lie. This is who I really am. I hate it. I hate me.
You hurt me more than any other. You attack me long and hard. And, honestly, it’s so hard to keep faith that God will rescue me in these moments. But I know He will. He gives me the power to make it through the hard times.
He always has a way out.
Child of God
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out s you can endure it.
1 Corinthians 10:13
Sometimes your darkness swallows me and then gnaws at the core of my soul. It hurts so deep and so hard. Unbearable. A consuming fire. Your flames surround me. You trap me, screaming at me that I am not worth it. But that is where your power ends. Because I know what God says about my worth. You can set my emotions ablaze. And rip my heart right out of my chest. But as long as I know you lie, I win. I know that God is unchanging. And I know His love for me remains constant. I know I am His chosen. So, keep raging with in me. Go right ahead. You won’t keep me down. I have God on my side. You WILL still lose this battle.
Child of God
Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows. Luke 12:6-7
Dear Child of God,
When I find you crying, sobbing and alone, I smile. Especially when you dry your tears, put on a strong countenance, hide the emptiness inside…… and act as though you are perfectly healthy and strong. I smile because I know as long as you pretend to be strong, it’s a lie, and that lie isolates you. And you were not created to be hurting alone. But when you finally allow yourself to be vulnerable, I cringe. Because I know how God works. Transparency eventually finds healing as you as reach out and your shame dissipates a little at a time. You will see all the hurting around you. And your heart will be softened and encouraged as you let others into your story. Into the raw places of your soul. Your tears are no longer alone. The aching in your heart, the emptiness, the shame – it’s shared. And when it’s shared, you WILL overcome. God will heal your breaking heart. And your story, well, it’s no longer in vain. The shattered, broken pieces of your life are restored, in the glorious light, to life.
Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. Galatians 6:2
Dear Child of God,
I cover your heart in shame. Your life in shame. Your very existence in shame. It seeps and oozes out of your every thought and word. That shame suffocates you as it covers you in that bleak darkness that envelops you wholly. Because of my lies, you truly believe there is something so very wrong inside of you. It’s as if people can see through you into the darkest parts. Where you hurt the most. Fear surrounds you. But, dear child, you don’t have to hurt. You don’t have to drown in your fear. And live your life in shame. Instead, trust in God to take away that judgement, that condemnation. It might not even feel true. Yes, the truth is going to feel like a lie. Simply because I have spent so much of your life whispering rejection, shame, and fear. But, ultimately, I don’t have power over you. You can be liberated from my control. You don’t have to feel it, but you can KNOW this to be true…….. In His perfect love, God has rescued you from your shame. You are free.
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.. Romans 8:1