Sometimes your darkness swallows me and then gnaws at the core of my soul. It hurts so deep and so hard. Unbearable. A consuming fire. Your flames surround me. You trap me, screaming at me that I am not worth it. But that is where your power ends. Because I know what God says about my worth. You can set my emotions ablaze. And rip my heart right out of my chest. But as long as I know you lie, I win. I know that God is unchanging. And I know His love for me remains constant. I know I am His chosen. So, keep raging with in me. Go right ahead. You won’t keep me down. I have God on my side. You WILL still lose this battle.
Child of God
Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows. Luke 12:6-7
Dear child of God,
I know this is a hard day for you. You miss your Dad. Like Crazy. And Father’s Day brings exposes a lot of raw grief. And I will take advantage of you when you are so vulnerable. You wish you had one last hug, you replay the moments that he was coherent and responded with the determination that he always had. You have a thousand “what ifs.” But right here, child of God, is where you make your choice. You can recall these moments with bitterness and believe that God was cruel. Or you can see God’s light shining through those last moments – even when your heart was so astray and hurting. You can choose to keep your eyes upon Jesus. And trust that He is good and perfect. And choose to rejoice that your dad is not in the darkness of this world but in the perfect light that Jesus shines upon him.
So, dear child, this may be a difficult day. But don’t let me rob you of the joy you can feel looking back upon his life. You can choose to rejoice.
God is light; in Him there is no darkness at all.
1 John 1:5
Dear Child of God,
I whisper in your ear all day long. I tell you how much you hate yourself. I interpret your own awkwardness for rejection and failure. I stab your heart and convince you that you are not strong enough to survive. And you carry my heavy burden. I distract you and overwhelm you with emotion. Because I don’t want you to know how much Jesus loves you. I want you cold and disconnected. But, the truth is that you have the power of the God of the Universe living inside you. If you refuse me, He conquers me. If you listen to my voice whispering in your ear, you will continue to struggle. The choice is yours. As God’s chosen, you have the power to overcome. You are strong. Because He is strong.
Finally be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Ephesians 6:10
Dear Child of God,
When I find you crying, sobbing and alone, I smile. Especially when you dry your tears, put on a strong countenance, hide the emptiness inside…… and act as though you are perfectly healthy and strong. I smile because I know as long as you pretend to be strong, it’s a lie, and that lie isolates you. And you were not created to be hurting alone. But when you finally allow yourself to be vulnerable, I cringe. Because I know how God works. Transparency eventually finds healing as you as reach out and your shame dissipates a little at a time. You will see all the hurting around you. And your heart will be softened and encouraged as you let others into your story. Into the raw places of your soul. Your tears are no longer alone. The aching in your heart, the emptiness, the shame – it’s shared. And when it’s shared, you WILL overcome. God will heal your breaking heart. And your story, well, it’s no longer in vain. The shattered, broken pieces of your life are restored, in the glorious light, to life.
Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. Galatians 6:2