Letters from Depression

I have chosen you, not rejected you

Dear Child of God,

       I isolate you.  Make you feel ashamed.  You wake up to faces flying through the walls.   And spiders engulfing you. You are afraid to move.  Sometimes, you don’t know what is real.  And so you keep quiet.  I make you feel so alone.  And I whisper in your ear that if you let people in, you will not only be alone.. but you will also be rejected.  And since I have spent a lifetime driving the fear of rejection deep into your soul, you won’t take the path of vulnerability.  I make sure of it.  The moment you step out, I harm you.  I shame you.  Terrify your mind.  But you do have a choice.  You can live in my rejection and fear.  You can live according to how I’ve made you feel.  Or you can choose to believe what God has to say.  Even when it is so hard to fathom.   I try to distract you so that you will not remember that  God says that you are His chosen.  Chosen.   And that even on those days when you can’t muster the energy for just one more  moment, He is holding you up.  And many times, that means that He places His people directly in your path.  To hold your hand.  And hold you up.  And help you.  Never forget that you are chosen.  And certainly not rejected.  You are His dearly, loved child.

 Sincerely,

           Depression

You are my servant;  I have chosen you, not rejected you.   So do not fear for I am with you.  Do not be dismayed for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you.  I will uphgold you with my righteous right hand.  Isaiah 41:9 NIV