Dear Child of God,
I whisper in your ear all day long. I tell you how much you hate yourself. I interpret your own awkwardness for rejection and failure. I stab your heart and convince you that you are not strong enough to survive. And you carry my heavy burden. I distract you and overwhelm you with emotion. Because I don’t want you to know how much Jesus loves you. I want you cold and disconnected. But, the truth is that you have the power of the God of the Universe living inside you. If you refuse me, He conquers me. If you listen to my voice whispering in your ear, you will continue to struggle. The choice is yours. As God’s chosen, you have the power to overcome. You are strong. Because He is strong.
Finally be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Ephesians 6:10
Dear Child of God,
I put that suffocating shame and suffering in your soul. You want nothing more to be free from your own self. I overwhelm you. Sometimes it’s grief. Sometimes it’s rejection. And sometimes I give you no reason for the burden that lays so heavily on your chest. And for a time, I overpower you. I relentlessly put the obsession in your mind to cut. Just to end the searing emotional pain. And I win you over. You argue with me. But in the end, I win. And then, you regret the mark of pain . And yet, at the same time, the physical pain was such a relief from the condemning hurt that usually tears throughout your body. I whisper hate into your heart for what you do that you do not even desire to do. And that hate turns to shame. But I am a liar. God does not condemn you. Not even when you make the wrong choice. And He also gives you freedom. Freedom to change. You CAN do the next right thing and let God change you from the inside out. He CAN deliver you.
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. Romans 7:15
Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. Psalm 107:6