Dear Child of God,
I watch you seek help in all the wrong places. And I know that as long as you refuse to wholly give your burden over to Jesus – you will never step out of the hurt. And into life….. your life as God has always intended for you. I encourage you to pull away from others and further into darkness. I lie to you and tell you that you are not relying on God when you allow others into the tough, dark places. But, God doesn’t want you in isolation. In fact, God chooses to work through people. He beautifully orchestrates your life with others’ to glorify Himself through your healing. He WILL bring wholeness in your life. Just keep your eyes on Him and I will not be able to destroy you.
I love the Lord, for He heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because He turned my ear to me, I will call on Him as long as I live. Psalm 116:1-2
Dear Child of God,
I put that suffocating shame and suffering in your soul. You want nothing more to be free from your own self. I overwhelm you. Sometimes it’s grief. Sometimes it’s rejection. And sometimes I give you no reason for the burden that lays so heavily on your chest. And for a time, I overpower you. I relentlessly put the obsession in your mind to cut. Just to end the searing emotional pain. And I win you over. You argue with me. But in the end, I win. And then, you regret the mark of pain . And yet, at the same time, the physical pain was such a relief from the condemning hurt that usually tears throughout your body. I whisper hate into your heart for what you do that you do not even desire to do. And that hate turns to shame. But I am a liar. God does not condemn you. Not even when you make the wrong choice. And He also gives you freedom. Freedom to change. You CAN do the next right thing and let God change you from the inside out. He CAN deliver you.
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. Romans 7:15
Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. Psalm 107:6