You pull me down. And yet, today, I stand outside myself. And I have so many questions. Like, why is there such a strong pull toward unhealthy coping strategies? I know what the healthy choice is, and yet, I still find myself buried in temptation to surrender to self-destruction. Why is that? And why do I feel squashed under dysfunction and others stand up under the pressure? Why is self harm and suicide even an option in my mind? Why do they seem like logical options? Why do I even consider when I know the heartache it causes my family? Why is this impulse to self destruct so strong? Yet, no answers. I can’t understand. I may never understand. I can only trust that God has some good that He will bring out of this difficult season.
Child of God
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.